Within/Without

Peace. This is not an diet update because I'm on hiatus. But just because I'm on a break doesn't mean I don't have stuff going on. I have this skin thing happening with my face that I'm going to write about once I get a better handle on it. It's not that bad. I think it's actually promising. But that's not the nature of this Build. I haven't fleshed it all out yet. But this Build is about exercise..... When I first started this deprivation diet. Yes, deprivation.... because I'm always fucking hungry.... and low-grade mad about it. But it's working so I can't complain too much. But here is the thing. With the exception of the 1st week, I haven't been exercising. Nope. Not at all. And I'm still losing. Why? I have no clue. When I reflect on successful diets of the past, most of them... with the exception of 1... I didn't exercise. Other less successful diets I was exercising and food restriction yet losing not weight. So......

Peace. I am on my 1st official hiatus. With this low calorie diet you cannot just stay on it forever. Your body will learn (as it does with any diet) and compensate. The natural desire of the body is to retain weight for a famine. (Damn how many famines have there been, that bodies have made these modifications?) This is the reasons diets stop working, and the reason why when you go back to a diet that worked previously they don't. The human body is amazing.... So I decided to take my break beginning on my bornday (11/10) and resume after all the Thanksgiving food is gone. Roughly around 11/29. That's about 2 weeks. Then I will be back on the low calorie diet until the new year. I 'm supposed to only do 3 cycles and take a REAL rest. A 2 month hiatus. The cycles are supposed to get smaller and smaller. Bottom line.... I will be having chocolate on Valentines Day. I'm liking how I look. No one has said anything... so maybe it's just me. All my clothes are loos...

Peace. Right now my locs are almost to my waist. When they're wet, they do infact reach my waist. But when they dry they are much shorter. I began my locs in 2008. Once I decided to loc, I said I'd either start my locs at 40 or after a life event. My father died 3/1/2008. My original goal with my hair was to grow it until I could sit on it. I heard someone use that as a goal and I thought it was cool. But the reality of this super long and super heavy hair makes me daily question that goal. I think it's a female desire to want long hair. Some females like short hair, most like it a bit longer. When you see a woman with long hair you don't have another thought. But when you see a man with long hair, you look a second time and make a few assumptions. I can't speak on other cultures other than the Black American communities... Actually I could speak on the white American culture because in this country they act like anything else is the exception and not the r...

Peace. I figured I might as well get this update going before next week. I'll probably go off this diet until the Sunday after Thanksgiving. It's fall and fall is a hectic time for me. It starts with Labor Day then I have 2 anniversaries in September. I celebrate Halloween for 3 days like it was a major holiday and them comes My bornday in November and then Thanksgiving. After that, I dig on the holiday vibe until the solstice and then new years. During the time between Thanksgiving and the new year, my office is inundated with treats, cakes and so forth. I'm not missing out on all that. I don't plan to overindulge, but I will be sampling. B.U.T.!!!!! I am really digging how loose all my clothes are feeling. They went from snug to fit to loose. I see a difference but no one has mentioned one to me. Maybe it's all in my mind. If it is, I'm still cool with it. I mean whatever is in your mind is your reality. So if in my mind I'm a thin, svelte, non-craz...

Peace. Have I mentioned lately that I hate physicians? I have vets too but that's for another time. I'm a dentist. When someone comes in, they say what the problem is, that problem gets addressed. Oh we may tell you about some other isht we see, but what you came for will have a resolution. Physicians.... not so much. I went to the doctor. The 7 and I got married last month, and now I'm legal with insurance! My excema is pushing and I want a cortisone shot before it full out flares. I get 1 every year. Since this is kinda new insurance, they decided to give them a once over. I went in there for a shot. I didn't get it. because I'm not in full flare, they want to wait until I am fully flared, before they give me the shot. That seems cruel to me. Flares are painful and disfiguring. They want me to try a bunch of different types of meds.... that I told them I already have at home.... to see if they would work. They wanted to take my blood to check me for shit I kn...

Peace. This week was another good week. I lost an additional 2” from my waist. Which means I'm back to my regular measurements. Yay! And my clothes reflect it by not killing me to wear. I'm actually wearing the skirt that prompted me to lose weight. So there's that. But even though it's good to be back... it's not where I want to be. My 1st paid goal is to get under 40” in my waist area. That would require a loss of 3 more inches..... yeesh. This week I continued to keep it under 800 calories. I did fall back on the exercise though. I'm lazy is all. And I don't enjoy running anymore since I ran that race. Who knew I was a shitty runner? So I'm going to have to find something else to get my body moving. Technically, just living should burn off more than 800 cal/day. But I know... and you know... if I keep doing the same thing, eventually it will stop working. Oh well. I took a cheat day where I ate all the things I wanted. It was glorious. I went to...

Peace. Well.... I am satisfied to say that I lost 2 inches from my waist! Yay damnit! For all you haters out there, I know the 1st week is always the best week. I will still take the victory. I have 2 more inches to get back to my normal waist measurement. And 6 more to achieve my 1st goal. My scale broke and I really don't know how that translates into pounds. I work in a hospital. I suppose with dedication I could find a scale somewhere. I'm not that dedicated. At some point I will have to. My 2nd and 3rd goal is contingent on the scale. But my 1st is not. I'll look into finding a scale then. My issue of the day is supplements.... I hate to have to take them. I feel like you should adjust your diet and lifestyle to get all that you need. Truth be told.... I'm living in this reality like most people. I have a 9-5, and all the pressure that come with middle class living for this world. I don't have the time or money to focus entirely on being super healthy. I tr...