Within/Without

Over the past few months I have been plagued with skin issues. I actually have had an outbreak of eczema that has been present for over a year but in at different levels. I have plans for my body and the treatment that would have been dangerous. I have been working with a naturopath and I have had some slow success. Last week I got angry with my health. Seriously, I got really angry. And my body knew that I meant business and acquiesced to my desires. Who knew it could be that simple? Let me share how it all went down. Last weekend I decided to do a cleansing. Basically, I didn’t eat any solid food for 3 days. What I did consume was huge amounts of water, the Master cleanse beverage, prune juice, fresh grapefruit juices, tea tonics natural laxatives, garlic and vitamins. I treated the lesions with clove oil. (I got that from a young girl who had HIV lesions) Can I tell you? I just have the scars. And I ain’t mad at that. I have been looking to see if there are any relapses.

I’m sick. The sad part is I’ve been sick without trying to do much about it. I have been very western in my in my thinking with my eastern practices. I am a practitioner of holistic medicine with a heavy emphasis on Ayurveda. Yeah, I said it! Let me sum it up for you…. I have had a rash for about a year. It went away for the most part last month, but it came back with a vengeance. I have picked up some other symptoms like headaches, nausea, vomiting and dizziness. When I look at my lifestyle, I can see that I’m slipping. Bad. Not less than 2 years ago, I was on my game and on it hard. I did not use artificial/commercial products directly on my skin. I did not allow myself to wear synthetic fibers. I ate better; absolutely no fast food. Actually, mostly organic. On the flip, I had Jesus, makeup, a weave, and way more money than I have at my current disposal. I drank and smoked heavily too. But…. I appeared to be healthier. And I had no real stress. I know a lot better now a

I have gained 10 lbs! I have no damn idea how this happened. Seriously! I have not been overeating. I am not lying. I may eat fruit or a croissant in the morning, have my main meal at lunch, and eat a light snack in the evening. I don't eat a lot at night because it interferes with my ability to sleep soundly and I wake up ravenous. I got enough problems in the morning. I thought it was cycle weight, but that has passed and my thighs are still chafing. This ain't good y'all! Peace