Within/Without

This is kind of pissing me off. Why can't I cut and paste from Word to here? There goes an hour I can't get back. Anyway.... I did it. I have begun the excercise portion of my healthy makeover. And I'm hurt all over. It's been 11 days since I began to truly eat better. (I sould like a recovering crackhead don't I?) I recognize that a good diet is just not enough. I plan to be a look looking old woman. And I don't want to be on any long term medications. Hell I don't want to be on ANY meds. I already eat a pretty healthy diet, yet I have some issues. So I suppose I have to move something. I don't work on Fridays, and I don't go to church on Sunday's. I've chosen those days to walk at least 3 miles in the park. This park is cool. It has walking and hiking trails. There is a lot to see and be entertained while you walk. I want to be active at least 3 times a week; so Tuesday and Wednesdays are days earmarked to do something additi...

I'm only human, I'm just a woman. Help me believe in what I could be And all that I am. Show me the stairway, I have to climb. Lord for my sake, teach me to take One day at a time. I started this weekend to get back on the healthy bandwagon. I wanted to do a 3-day cleanse. It was not easy. The goal is to cut junk food down to a bare minimum and eat only healthy foods. Not so much for weight loss, as that would be nice, but I recognize that all folks aren’t meant to be thin. (I’ve decided to be the chic chubby chick) But we are meant to be healthy and longevity without chronic health problems is the ultimate goal. I hate the thought and action of having to give up something I cherish. I cherish junk food. I love junk food as much as I loved smoking and drinking. But just as I put those nasty habits away, I am struggling to put away the junk food habit. And it ain’t easy. Damn it ain’t easy! I have been a vegetarian, raw foodist, sometimes vegan and at times a pescatarian fo...

All right, all right….. I know I’m prolly setting myself up for failure. Especially since I’m about to go to Show & Prove; and y’all know how it’s done on vacation… But… I think…. I am going to get back on the “raw food” bandwagon. Two reasons. 1st reason: I feel guilty every time I put non-raw food in my mouth. And I try to rationalize it all out by eating a salad with it. Imagine how it all looks, BK (just an example. I don’t do fast food on the reg) veggie burger with cheese and all the fixins, onion rings (cause I only eat McDonald’s fries) a vanilla shake and a side salad. I rationalized that the fixins and the salad are raw and therefore count toward my goal of ‘high raw’. NOT. 2nd reason: And most importantly…. This morning I put on a dress that I couldn’t wear last summer. The dress was so tight I felt like a sausage in it. I almost gave it to Goodwill. But I wanted to wear a sweater today that I rigged last night and this dress was a good fit. I expected to have to wear al...

I’m feeling poopy. I probably continue to feel poopy unless someone does me a huge solid. I need to cheer myself up. I have decided to do one of my favorite things…. Cookout! Now as a vegetarian folks be on it like there is no way I can get any good use out of my grill. I pity the closed minded. I use way less charcoal than the carnivores because my concern is only warmth and flavor. I don’t have to make sure the food is completely cooked through. That actually makes me wonder if I have the close minded gene lurking within. But that’s another blog. Here goes my tentative menu…. Portobello mushroom caps Kebabs (Vidalia, mushrooms, mango, peppers, squash) in a jerk sauce Spaghetti salad Grilled Polenta Berries Sweet Tea Leftover Mead (I need to make more) You hungry yet? Peace

It’s been a minute. I know. Life is definitely fighting back. But it is what it is and it cannot last forever so….. With this month nearly completed I want to hip you up on what is going on in my cipher. I said that for the month of May I was going to drink the water. I have been, for the most part, drinking 128 oz of water daily. WoW! Who knew it could be done. I disliked the taste of water before. But I can say with complete honesty, that it doesn’t bother me anymore. As a matter of fact, I can now recognize thirst. It’s a beautiful thing. I have come to realize that a lot of my desire for food was actually me being thirsty. And the temporary time that my stomach stays full with water is enough to allow the urge to past. Thus I have lost a few pounds behind the effort. Which brings me to my next issue… I must admit loudly and publicly… I am not raw fooding anymore. It’s not that I’m against it. For some reason, I just don’t want to do it. And I have searched internally...

I wrote on yesterday that I was bored. After I got it all nice and posted I did what I do best…. I overanalyzed the situation. This is what I came up with… Q. If I am so bored, why am I bored? A. I have been eating the same thing over and over again Q. How do I fix that? A. Go internal and see what the body is wanting Q. On May 6th, what does this body want? A. Sausage! Okay… WTF? I’m a vegetarian for nearly 10 years. Right now, a raw foodist. Why would I be looking to eat a piece of sausage? More importantly, I’m righteous, and that ain’t never gonna happen again. And I wanted some of that country sagey, hot sausage at that. Maybe a biscuit with some of that pork gravy that I used to love and blood pudding….. Mmmmmm…. Now a days, I don’t eat pork, but in the past, when I did eat it…. I ate all the nastiness you could think of. Head cheese or souse on a cracker to be lady-like, chittlins at the holidays (with a small fork), ribs all year long because my mother loves her p...

I’m bored with the raw food thing. At first, like any other food plan, I was cooking and obsessing over ratios and such. Then I started to get lazy and just eat salads and whole fruits. I’ve tried to go back to the meal planning and what not, but I can’t find anything that I want to eat. I have been un-cooking my favorites like BBQ, Goddess Chips and taco meat. But I don’t want to eat that every single week. It’s boring. And the desserts leave a lot to be desired. I’m allergic to avocados and that is an ingredient in a lot of cakes and pies. Plus… I hate the standard date/nut pie crust. I know. I should innovate. Come up with my own recipes and such. I have done that, but am a little hesitant. I don’t wanna screw up good food experimentally. My sweet tooth has taken over and I can never seem to get full no matter how much I eat. Maybe it’s hormones, but I doubt it. I have been feeling this way for a minute now. Oh well. Maybe my body is trying to tell me that it doesn...