Backsliding on Home
All right, all right….. I know I’m prolly setting myself up for failure. Especially since I’m about to go to Show & Prove; and y’all know how it’s done on vacation… But… I think…. I am going to get back on the “raw food” bandwagon.
Two reasons. 1st reason: I feel guilty every time I put non-raw food in my mouth. And I try to rationalize it all out by eating a salad with it. Imagine how it all looks, BK (just an example. I don’t do fast food on the reg) veggie burger with cheese and all the fixins, onion rings (cause I only eat McDonald’s fries) a vanilla shake and a side salad. I rationalized that the fixins and the salad are raw and therefore count toward my goal of ‘high raw’. NOT. 2nd reason: And most importantly…. This morning I put on a dress that I couldn’t wear last summer. The dress was so tight I felt like a sausage in it. I almost gave it to Goodwill. But I wanted to wear a sweater today that I rigged last night and this dress was a good fit. I expected to have to wear all kinds of girdles to get up in this piece. No haps! I pulled this joker easily over my head and it zipped up with no problems. I gotta do what I can to keep this size or maybe go a little smaller.
This morning I’m back on the internet trying to get the back in the game. I’m realizing that a large part of the reason I backslid was because of boredom. I was essentially eating the same thing over and over. Pesto mushrooms, tacos and BBQ. That was pretty much it. But I asked myself what am I eating now that’s all diverse? Nothing really. Sandwiches and chips. I need to whack this diversity thing. Another real problem vs. the made up ones I usually choose, is I be hungry and can’t get filled on raw food. That is a more difficult issue to resolve. Cooked food is filling. The bread in a sandwich is enough to make me feel like I did something. I know I shouldn’t be eating to fullness. But some habits are hard to break. Some you don’t want to break. Why would I eat unless I was planning to get full? Doesn’t make sense to me.
Anywho…. I’d like to think that I’m back on track. I’m not going to dive head first into 100% raw. I’m going to ease into it. It may sound like a cop out. It very well may be. I've seen raw food vegan stuff advertised for S&P but..... let’s see what happens.
Peace
Two reasons. 1st reason: I feel guilty every time I put non-raw food in my mouth. And I try to rationalize it all out by eating a salad with it. Imagine how it all looks, BK (just an example. I don’t do fast food on the reg) veggie burger with cheese and all the fixins, onion rings (cause I only eat McDonald’s fries) a vanilla shake and a side salad. I rationalized that the fixins and the salad are raw and therefore count toward my goal of ‘high raw’. NOT. 2nd reason: And most importantly…. This morning I put on a dress that I couldn’t wear last summer. The dress was so tight I felt like a sausage in it. I almost gave it to Goodwill. But I wanted to wear a sweater today that I rigged last night and this dress was a good fit. I expected to have to wear all kinds of girdles to get up in this piece. No haps! I pulled this joker easily over my head and it zipped up with no problems. I gotta do what I can to keep this size or maybe go a little smaller.
This morning I’m back on the internet trying to get the back in the game. I’m realizing that a large part of the reason I backslid was because of boredom. I was essentially eating the same thing over and over. Pesto mushrooms, tacos and BBQ. That was pretty much it. But I asked myself what am I eating now that’s all diverse? Nothing really. Sandwiches and chips. I need to whack this diversity thing. Another real problem vs. the made up ones I usually choose, is I be hungry and can’t get filled on raw food. That is a more difficult issue to resolve. Cooked food is filling. The bread in a sandwich is enough to make me feel like I did something. I know I shouldn’t be eating to fullness. But some habits are hard to break. Some you don’t want to break. Why would I eat unless I was planning to get full? Doesn’t make sense to me.
Anywho…. I’d like to think that I’m back on track. I’m not going to dive head first into 100% raw. I’m going to ease into it. It may sound like a cop out. It very well may be. I've seen raw food vegan stuff advertised for S&P but..... let’s see what happens.
Peace
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Every great quilt starts with one stitch....
Keep up the good work and your quest will be
realized. Its a matter of attitude and determination! You go girl!