Within/Without

Peace Family! This is Day 6 into my raw vegan diet. I have just one thing to complain/build about (depending on how you look at it)… God Allah Saves! Not a good look (or sound/smell). I’m assuming it’s because it still in the early stages of things, and my body is not used to it. I’m hoping the urges will pass. Meaning stop and not the other pass. I’m a lady. I can’t abide this for the long haul. I have had prep going every single day. There is something soaking, sprouting or dehydrating at all times. I cannot allow myself to slip and be lazy. It will be that much harder to resume because of the preparation back log. I have a lot of staples in the fridge and even should the possibility occur that I might come home one day and just veg out in front of the Tell-lie-vision (and I 12 it) I will still be ok. Although, all this aggressive dehydrating has the dehydrator acting up. It’s not getting ‘dehydrator warm’ anymore. I need to give it a rest. It has been on for the last 3 days straight...

Happy New Year Family! Well since the sun is up, it is officially the Equinox! Many cultures consider this the New Year. Including myself. There are loads of calendars out there; Julian, Jewish, Astrological, Gregorian to name a few. But I want to mark mine on something that hasn’t been mixed diluted or tampered with in any form. So for me, the Equinox is the New Year. The Equinox is a Sun:Earth:Star event. When the Sun appears to rise on the Earth in the constellation of Aries, so begins the New Year. I’m waiting for the devil to try to mess with that! The Equinox, for this blog, is the beginning of my “Rawness”. Last night, while preparing for a little party I’m having this evening, I prepared a bunch of raw dishes. I went to a raggedy farmer’s market and purchased produce earlier in the week. I cleaned up… windows, floors, surfaces, laundry… to get things in order for this evening. Still have a little more to do, but all is well. The trick with raw food eating is plannin...

I need for y’all to know… This was a very uncomfortable fast. Not because I wanted to cheat. I didn’t. Nor because I was tempted and whatever. Nope. I have been sick for a minute. For nearly 2 of the 3 weeks of this fast. And I still ain’t right. It is a combination of detox/flu/and hormones. Let me tell you…. That is not a good combination. I came to work last Monday because I had watched too much CSI and didn’t want to be found dead in my home months after I died. I figured a public death would force folks to see about me. I tried to end the fast early because of the continued illness and my body rejected the food. Ain’t like I tried to end it with a pizza or something. Just some soup. And the soup came up for an encore performance. I don’t want to give the impression that fasting is bad. It isn’t. I have never suffered in the past as I have suffered this time. I bet I’m a modicum healthier for it. I enjoyed the clarity and I lost a lot of weight. I have set a new wei...

19 days y’all! 19 long assed days. Wow. Not just wow because of the length of time I have been fasting, but that all of the physical crap that I have been dealing with the entire fast. This whole fast I have not felt well. I have a cold that won’t let go. Normally when I am ill, I fast. And in the 7 years that I perform this fast, don’t normally get sick. I have had this cold m(possibly detox) for a minute now. Today I notice a blemish on my face. I am almost convinced that it is hormonal. I decided to start a liver flush. I began last night. No stones yet. I had forgotten that liver flushing could rid a person of allergy symptoms. I am anticipating that this flush is just what I need right now. I am not dying over the oil or anything like that. I really just want to feel better. I have begun to cook. This morning I took some kale chips off the dehydrator. Made some raw pesto too. I have plans to make some raw granola, raw corn chip and a few desserts. Also a few salads and some stuff...

I feel like shit! I have been progressively getting sicker over the last few days. I initially chalked it up to detox. But detox this late in the game is not good. It has been nice here the last few days. I didn’t take it upon myself to go all buck-wild as show my behind and toes. I just think I have a cold or flu. I work in a doctor’s office and folks have been slugging in here sick. Now I go to work when I’m sick. I have to. I don’t have the luxury of being sick or taking time off at my job unless it is a pure emergency. But I don’t be all up in people’s faces trying to make them sick either. Folks have been sick here and on the bus. I suppose even with my healthy lifestyle, the Russian roulette bullet was bound to hit me in the skull. My nose is runny, I can barely speak, my throat is gravelly and I can feel it every time I take a breath, my cheeks and tongue are swollen, and I hurt…. All over. My dang ear is killing me. It’s the body pain that makes me suspect cold/flu vs....

I don’t like the concept of genetically modified foods (GMO’s). The concept is that foods have been engineered at their DNA to produce favorable traits. And that this process is synonymous with grafting or selective growing. It is not. First of all there are combinations that could never happen in nature. Like combining plant and animal genes. And since this is a new process (GMO’s hit the shelves in the 90’s) no one knows the long term effects of this practice. (Like the microwave. But that’s another build.) And the reasoning behind this is not so that the food will be tastier or healthier. NO… It is so that farmers can spray pesticides directly on the plants without damaging them. Come now? Has our selfishness really taken us to this level? I remember some time in the 90’s I became really very ill anytime I ate a food that contained or was cooked in corn oil. I couldn’t be in a home where corn oil is being heated. No doctor could ever tell me what was up with my new allergy...

I have been fasting a week today and it’s progressing just as expected. I have noticed that this fast is a little more high post than my previous fasts. Not really knowing why. I’m putting it on the fact that as I age my tastes become more refined. Oh well. The clarity is good too. I have come to many realizations. None more important than the fact that I tend to expect bad things to happen. People have told me for years that I’m negative, and I never understood why. When I do have good expectant thoughts, I mentally suppress them. So I have given myself permission to be happy. And guess what. I am. Wow. Who knew? I have been losing weight. That is a given when you choose not to eat. But the weight is all over. This is the frustrating part. Where as my clothes are getting looser and looser, my body looks the same. I’m losing weight in proportion with my ordinary shape. I had a friend who went on a diet and lost a lot of weight. She was shaped like an egg. But as she los...