Challenge Me

Peace

I have noticed that while doing a challenge.... like the Raise the Rod challenge I did in May.... I always feel all strong, empowered and capable during and after. And when I allow myself to go back to my regular pattern, I always slip right back into my normal routines which puts me back in the same situation as I was before said challenge. I feel like a slug. Hmmmmm..... Does this mean I am learning nothing?

Well, I am learning. But apparently I'm not learning to make a life long change. That small revelation will help in the future. I am sure there will be more challenges and situations that I can use the past information to draw on and become a better Serenity.

I learned that I could lose weight while 100% without trying super hard. I also learned that I'm not the hungry type when I'm eating well (i.e. low on the processed food spectrum). Also, I sleep better, my skin looks better and I have energy. So clearly raw helps. BUT.... 100% raw makes me ditzy and keeps me cold. Also raw food is notoriously hard to plan for. And now a days it's expensive. So I need to find some balance there.

Dinacharya is wonderful, but should something occur, where I fall off of it for even 1 instance, it's like pulling teeth to get back on board. I can't tell you the last time I dry brushed!

The no shopping challenge allowed me to reconnect with my sewing machine. I am glad to say that we are in a committed relationship and I turn to Kenny (Kenmore machine) before I would turn to the mall. I am satisfied with that result because it's lasting, it gives me a feeling of accomplishment and I am recognizing my goal of a smaller but totally self made/designed wardrobe.

Some challenges just didn't work. The Wiccan challenge was too much. I couldn't take the white people and they couldn't take me. The 5 Tibetans made me so nauseated that I threw up every time I performed them and had to lay down for at least a 1/2 hour. Not a good look if I have to go to work. And I didn't see what they were doing for me.

So some stuff works, some doesn't. Maybe I need to superimpose my challenges so that I never run out of one. Because once I get off, it takes an act of the mystery god to get back on.

But for now, I'm taking the best part.



Peace

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