Within/Without

Peace. This is not an diet update because I'm on hiatus. But just because I'm on a break doesn't mean I don't have stuff going on. I have this skin thing happening with my face that I'm going to write about once I get a better handle on it. It's not that bad. I think it's actually promising. But that's not the nature of this Build. I haven't fleshed it all out yet. But this Build is about exercise..... When I first started this deprivation diet. Yes, deprivation.... because I'm always fucking hungry.... and low-grade mad about it. But it's working so I can't complain too much. But here is the thing. With the exception of the 1st week, I haven't been exercising. Nope. Not at all. And I'm still losing. Why? I have no clue. When I reflect on successful diets of the past, most of them... with the exception of 1... I didn't exercise. Other less successful diets I was exercising and food restriction yet losing not weight. So......

Peace. I am on my 1st official hiatus. With this low calorie diet you cannot just stay on it forever. Your body will learn (as it does with any diet) and compensate. The natural desire of the body is to retain weight for a famine. (Damn how many famines have there been, that bodies have made these modifications?) This is the reasons diets stop working, and the reason why when you go back to a diet that worked previously they don't. The human body is amazing.... So I decided to take my break beginning on my bornday (11/10) and resume after all the Thanksgiving food is gone. Roughly around 11/29. That's about 2 weeks. Then I will be back on the low calorie diet until the new year. I 'm supposed to only do 3 cycles and take a REAL rest. A 2 month hiatus. The cycles are supposed to get smaller and smaller. Bottom line.... I will be having chocolate on Valentines Day. I'm liking how I look. No one has said anything... so maybe it's just me. All my clothes are loos...

Peace. Right now my locs are almost to my waist. When they're wet, they do infact reach my waist. But when they dry they are much shorter. I began my locs in 2008. Once I decided to loc, I said I'd either start my locs at 40 or after a life event. My father died 3/1/2008. My original goal with my hair was to grow it until I could sit on it. I heard someone use that as a goal and I thought it was cool. But the reality of this super long and super heavy hair makes me daily question that goal. I think it's a female desire to want long hair. Some females like short hair, most like it a bit longer. When you see a woman with long hair you don't have another thought. But when you see a man with long hair, you look a second time and make a few assumptions. I can't speak on other cultures other than the Black American communities... Actually I could speak on the white American culture because in this country they act like anything else is the exception and not the r...

Peace. I figured I might as well get this update going before next week. I'll probably go off this diet until the Sunday after Thanksgiving. It's fall and fall is a hectic time for me. It starts with Labor Day then I have 2 anniversaries in September. I celebrate Halloween for 3 days like it was a major holiday and them comes My bornday in November and then Thanksgiving. After that, I dig on the holiday vibe until the solstice and then new years. During the time between Thanksgiving and the new year, my office is inundated with treats, cakes and so forth. I'm not missing out on all that. I don't plan to overindulge, but I will be sampling. B.U.T.!!!!! I am really digging how loose all my clothes are feeling. They went from snug to fit to loose. I see a difference but no one has mentioned one to me. Maybe it's all in my mind. If it is, I'm still cool with it. I mean whatever is in your mind is your reality. So if in my mind I'm a thin, svelte, non-craz...