Within/Without

Peace. As of tomorrow, I will be done with P90x! I would have been done last week on May 2nd, but I got the flu. I did try to work out through my illness but I threw up every time I tried. So…. I don’t think I’m going to do this again. And let me tell you why…. First… It’s hard to stay committed for 90 days. I was gung ho for 60 day sand really resented the last 90. That’s no way to workout. I started to get sloppy and play with the workouts. Second… Most of the workouts were very long; ranging from 76-90 minutes. I don’t work in the fitness industry. In order to complete the workouts I have to wake up between 4-4:30 am. Now I may sound like I’m whining, and I probably am, but anything before 5 is too much for me. I still have to work a 9 hour day, come home, do housework and feed my family. With a 4 am wake up call, I am dead asleep at 9pm (sometimes before) and my honey bunny takes the loss. I need something that is shorter and can be done either in the morning or the evening...

Peace. I’m finishing up P90x this week, so I have become introspective. Also, it’s Mater Allah Why? And that too has me thinking. It’s time for my annual cleanse. RTR is in May…. And I should have really seen it coming…. But I didn’t. So I’m late. The God made a decision and didn’t even bother to tell me what he was considering until after he decided. I know it’s not required to raise the rod in May, or even for women to raise it at all. But I like to get my cleanse on. And my body is screaming for it. Currently my skin is riddles with eczema (maybe leprosy…. j/k), I’m feeling really stupid and I’m just getting over the flu. I have no business feeling like this. I am a healthy person! So normally the ‘go to’ thing is 100% raw!!!! But not this time. I just have to admit that I’, not perfect and that’s 100% is really hard for me to maintain. I know it’s good for me, but I just don’t want to. I’m busy. I have God 100% of the time and he requires my attention and effort. Also choice...

Dear Body, I am so sorry. I have been subjecting you to all manner of exercise expecting you to instantly change. And when you did not, I became a total couch potato eating all manner of snacks and processed foods. I didn’t listen to you when you told me that you were impure. You showed me by allowing the skin to go crazy. And even that wasn’t enough to get me to see how bull headed I have been. You gave me headaches, the flu and now the return of loose booty. So now what’s the plan? First I will internally cleanse you and get rid of the impurities. I will nourish you with a clean and fresh diet. I will wash you with plenty of water. I will keep you away from over processed foods. I realize that I am the steward and sole controller of you and I have to do my part to see that you stay healthy. Please forgive me? And don’t get old on me! I love you! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo Serenity