Within/Without

Peace. One of my New Years resolutions was that I would show this blog a little more love. Once a season posting is really not the hotness. It is my ambition to post more regularly over here. And if I feel like I can't really love this like I should, then I will combine this blog with one of the other blogs I keep. And they are all different. The only thing that is the same is the "Peace." That being said..... If y'all haven't joined Pinterest.com you need to. It takes a minute to get up and rolling, but it's so worth it once you get going. It's on my most visited list now a days. I find a lot of homemaking tips on there. One of the tips I found is for dry skin cream. Now I have been blessed/cursed/you call it with eczema since birth. I suffer. Prescription creams and ointments have helped some, radiation some, infections some... but as the crunchy Earth I have become I don't want to use those things. I don't want to itch and become disfigure...

Peace, I don't always remember what I say here and quite frankly I'm too lazy to go back and check. So you know I'm telling the truth since I wouldn't be able to remember a lie! I, as a woman, have suffered from iron poor blood since puberty. I remember going to the pediatrician and him giving me a Rx for iron and my mother throwing it away away and telling me, "All women are iron deficient. It's the price for womanhood." Now I don't know if DFACs is retroactive, because she needed to spend some time in lock up because of her wisdom. What I got from that it was my lot to suffer as a woman and to blow off my iron levels. Fast forward to 2002. I had fibroids so bad I couldn't stand upright. I was in constant pain and needed to have surgery but was so iron deficient that I required 3 transfusions. 1 before, 1 during and 1 after. Add to the stew, there was rampant infection in the blood supply. I ended up waiting 2 months before my blood was stron...

Peace Y'all, It's the time of year where I think about how my resolutions went and plan for some new ones. I have officially said good bye to some dreams and hello to others. I'm in a good place. I recognize that I need to get my cleanse on. But I have no desire to suffer ridiculous detox. So....... I'm going to slowly step into a cleaner Serenity. While on the hCg diet, I realized that I could train my body to be happy with less food. that's good to know. I lost 22 lbs on it btw. 22 lbs I can see. So I'm going to stick to the lower cal, but change the low carb option a bit. I am going to start back juicing and green smoothie-ing again for breakfast. That way I can get all my fruit and veggie requirements and maybe do some healing. My skin is still tripping. But I recognize that it is all stress related. I don't see myself calming down unless I hit the lottery so I will just have to hold on. I'm no longer concerned with bearing (one of the dreams ...

Peace, I have a complex relationship with bread. I like some bread a lot and others not at all. To me, bread MUST be tantalizing or it’s not worth it at all to me. Since being on this HCG diet I haven’t been able to eat a ridiculous amount of gluten. And I like the results. The hCg diet is a low calorie, no carb diet that lets you eat the smallest amounts of bread and eat them desiccated. As I’m making my way back to normal eating, I realize that I’m not a big bread eater. I’m not. A biscuit holds no fascination for me except as a vehicle for vegan sausage gravy. Yes, I will admit KFC might find me at their drive-thru requesting 3, but you can check the calendar and see I’m due. Sliced bread is only appealing with peanut butter or lettuce tomato and cheese. I am not one of these people who have a slice of bread on my dinner plate unless it is part of a sandwich. There is a loaf of bread on my countertop that has been there a month. It’s store bought and sliced. What it is not is ...

Peace Y’all, I hope I can get this build up and running before I fall asleep. I had a violent skin reaction this morning and I had to take some Benadryl. Drowsiness is a side effect and I feel it coming down on me like a heavy blanket. I believe it was a reaction to the polyester in one of my favorite dresses. I generally don’t wear polyester and got rid of most things from my wardrobe. But this dress was a favorite. Oh well. It will find the Goodwill soon enough. I need to make that cotton slip that I have been promising myself I’d make. That might have aided me this morning. I have eczema. I have had it all my life. It is relation to the trilogy of asthma-sinusitis-eczema. My mother and brother have asthma so bad that they have both been hospitalized because of it. I suppose in the grand scheme of things, what I suffer from is not so bad. It could be worse. Time to be a bit proactive…. Google is everyone’s friend. As a child, I remember getting steroid shots and UV treatments. ...

I lost 11lbs last week! Yay Serenity!!!!! I just hope I'm not screwing up my metabolism and various and sundry body parts.... Peace

Peace, I started taking the meds for the HcG diet. You are supposed to eat like a Viking for the 1st 2 days. And I did. I also gained 6lbs. :-/ I feel some kind of way about that. I really Expect to be close to 245 by the next Monday. Seriously. I have to give myself injections!!! Yeah. So I NEED to see this weight come off and come off fast. This diet is against everything I have ever been taught as a dieter. No breakfast. Just black coffee. 2 meals a day. Both should equal 500 calories or under? Weigh every day? No exercise? That shit is crazy! It better work, otherwise it may irrevocably screw up my metabolism. It also features no carbs Atkins kind of thing. I suppose. I can be on this for 6 weeks a pop and then I have to come off and spend real time away from this diet. That’s different. With past diets, I stayed on them until I gave up or I lost all the weight I wanted. This one is 6 weeks at a pop. So this is day 3 of Phase 2. There are 4 phases. Phase 1 is essentially just...