Within/Without

Peace Family. This woman came into the office today. She was a previous patient looking to make an appointment. Okay. That's cool. The last time she was in the office, say around 2 years ago, she was on some weird spirituality thing. I'm not judging. Alls I'm saying is, it didn't seem balanced. She was speaking on a lot of different topics that I have intimate knowledge of... The occult, Yoruban beliefs, Kemetic beliefs, Ayurveda, yoga and she had the nerve to sprinkle a little 5% on it too. 2 years ago she was surprised that I was as well versed as I was. I even pointed her to some independent sources where she could learn without the influence of her paid spiritual adviser. Clearly she did not take me up on the offer. Well today she was on the raw band wagon. Now y'all know, I know raw. I noticed that she was drinking a prepared green smoothie. I say prepared because she didn't prepare it. She bought it. She was nibbling on a raw bar that was also store bought...

Peace Family, Last month, I'd say nearly 6 weeks ago, I went to the farmer's market and purchased some produce. The reason I went to the farmer's market is because assumed that the food was of higher quality than grocery store food. That was a false assumption. I have noticed that when you shop for food at different places you get different qualities of food. One of my concerns is with genetically modified foods or GMO's. This food is not required to be labeled as a GMO. So you never know if your eating it or not. Since this food is designed to last longer than other produce in the store and resist pests in the field, I assume GMO's will food will have an inordinately shelf life. So I will occasionally get food and leave it on the counter to see how long it will last. I try to use a control group with garden food; but I can't always obtain garden controls. The interesting thing is, food will last a crazy amount of time from places like Wal-Mart, Kroger or the su...

Peace Folks! I was reading a blog by a 'fellow' sewist. I use the parenthases because her work is more proficient, prolific and higher quality than mine. She was saying that size doesn't matter to her because she makes all her own clothes. This comment got me thinking. I make most of my own clothes; so for me, as well, size isn't an issue. I am always going to have what I want to wear. I am healthy, meaning I have no diagnosed conditions that require treatment of any sort. I eat well. I excercise. There is nothing wrong with me. So why do I feel like there is always something that I need to be doing to better myself? Am I trying to be other than my ownself? What is my ownself? A 40 year old woman. I look in the mirror and I am satisfied with what I see. I'm not really sure where that satisfaction comes from. Am I pleased with how I look? Or have I just accepted how I look. Some would ask, What's the difference? And a big part of me is in that number. But other ...

Yeah! I take breaks from working out when I have my period. I said it. I ain't shamed either. I also allow myself time to nap, cry and eat. You have a problem with that? Nothing? Uh huh.... thought so! Peace

Peace Y'all, I have been practicing yoga consistently for Wisdom months now. I feel really good.... strong. I see what additional flexibility can do for the body and I am satisfied with the results. I'm not getting smaller, but I'm getting better. And really, what more can I ask for. One of my finishing moves is called "Savasana" or corpse pose. You lay flat on your back, eyes closed, feet falling apart, palms up. I use this pose to end my personal sequenced home practice. I suspect the reason why I sequence it in like that is because it clearly is a relaxed position. And most of the videos sequence it at the end. Born Allah Truth.... You knew there had to be a but in there... I didn't always find it relaxing. When you do a pose in a studio/ashram or from a video, there is only so much relaxation you can achieve. You have to be mindful of keeping up with the video or the class. No matter how you get into a pose you kinda have to adjust your head or eyes to Kno...

Peace A few days ago I did something I hadn't done in a long time.... I ate a big salad. I have been walking someone through the vegetarian transition. When you teach someone anything, you tend to do so from the perspective of how you were taught. You emphasize what you liked and de-emphasize what you didn't. When I became a vegetarian, a decade ago, things were very different from the way they are now. It was mad cheap. Tofu was something you had to go to an authentic Chinese food restaurant to get. Then you could only get it steamed and looking at you as a white block. There was no internet loaded with ideas and I didn't personally know other practicing vegetarians. My mother is a raging pork-atarian. I have been focusing on all the variety and flavor that a vegetarian diet offers. A salad is like... white bread. You know it's there. Its an old standby. I loved it! The lettuce, the tomatoes, the dressing all the additives.... Mmmm.... I missed it. I had been eating sa...

Peace Y'all! A few months ago... like July... The God and I were in the grocery store. We were joking around and having fun as is our custom. This old woman walked up to us and asked us if we were together. We confirmed that we were. She then asked us if we were wanting to have children. A very odd and nosy question for a stranger to ask don't you think? But we were in a playful warm current so we obliged her question. She told us to not think about it and just enjoy the interaction. If I got tight then nothing would happen. Okay. I dismissed what she said as a root work. I'm a scientist and a health care professional. Even though this old woman reported having 9 biological children of her own, what do I need her advice for? I know how to get pregnant... right? Another one of my friends who has 3 children (we are the same age) told me essentially the same thing. She said if you are stressed, the internal structures are too tight to receive life. Humph! What does she know? ...