Within/Without

Hey y'all, First things first.... My health.... Since I bought a full bottle of Noni. I'm going to take a full bottle of Noni. I've continued to take the into another month and still nothing. Actually this was a painful, messy and heavy cycle. I decided to not focus so much on the fibroid tumors and expand my research to just tumors. Since I have been doing fibroid work for 2 decades to no avail. I did realize that every time I get baby fever they grow a bit. Oh well. In that vein I've come across the "Budwig Diet." It's a cancer/tumor reducing diet. We'll see. since I probably won't be starting that until my next cycle.... I have to figure it out.... That won't be what I try this month. This next month I'm going to really give castor oil packs a try. I've tried them before but not consistently. It's messy. To my intended build.... I've been out of work for 2 years. I had a job last year but it wasn't real. I always b...

I’ve been reading a book on how to release fibroids. Mine are really large and since I’ve been losing weight, they are closer to the surface of my belly and more painful. A lot of the recommendations in the book I had tried before but didn’t work for my can fibroids. You can’t try everything at once. You’ll never know what worked. So.... this month... and by month, I mean cycle to cycle.... I’ve been trying Noni. Folks swear that Noni can cure cancer and regrow severed limbs. That it was personally blessed by Dr Seni to cure all the ills of the world. Well.... nothing. I’ve been taking supplements because the juice is really nasty. You’d expect something from Hawaii to be delicious. It’s not. And I don’t really know what I’m expecting with the ”release” of the fibroids. I don’t really know what to expect. I mean are they just gonna dissolve? Will I have to birth the big ones? Do I really want any of that? I do know that I have lost more than $50 pounds and my waist measurement has ...

... because I've been having a problem with eczema. The dermatologist noticed I had cats and thought that maybe I had a cat allergy. I do. But I also have several allergies. It's like I'm allergic to life! These are my results. There are less things I'm not allergic to. I'm going to have to change my entire life. I have changed some things through the years... But clearly it hasn't been enough. The doctor also said that since these allergies have undiagnosed for so long, they are intense enough to cause me to go into anaphylactic shock and they have probably contributed to my other chronic health issues... i.e. fibroids. But since he's an allergist he did't want to set that in stone. I am allergic to all the pollen, grass, food (like all the damn food), bugs, dust and my 2 cats. I'm so unhappy, I want to cry. But that would be unproductive. So.... here is a tentative plan. and I mean really tentative... since I just got my diagnosis today ...

I found dress that ADORED last summer. The problem is.... it’s too big!!!! Yes, too big! I’m so geeked! I also made the dress. I don’t normally like to discard my made items but I will this time. And I will feel great to do so!!!!

Peace, New Year, new me and all that bullshit! So I made a few resolutions.... Yoga... Meditation.... Water.... And as always lose weight. The yoga is going slow. For some reason, it makes me dizzy if I jump right in. Plus I want to make this a lifelong thing and not just a temporary change. I've been promised long life from 3 different entities. I'm in no rush. So I'm starting with developing a regular/daily practice of sun and moon salutations. The diet.... yeesh! I have come to the conclusion that not all diets work for all people. Last year I determined to lose 20 lbs/year until I'm 50. I lost it, but did't maintain it. Oh well. Lessons learned. This has caused me to look back on past diets to see what was successful. I had real success on 2 diets. Weightwatchers and Cyber trim. Both plans have changed. But I'm not about that weigh in meeting life. Maybe later. I've decided to do the carb cycling that the cyber trim offered. I lost weight on that a...

Peace, I'm a sit here and type and act like I ain't been gone a hot second.... One of my New Years Resolutions was regular meditation. I find meditation useful because it puts me in a pleasant headspace. Once I figured out how to do it in a way that worked for me, I enjoyed it immensely. But the lives most Americans live is super busy and small things that we do for pleasure are frowned upon if they don't generate gold. But since my life has taken on a different tenure, I'm reincorporating meditation back into my rotation. So this morning is cold AF. You know it's cold when you hear the heat really kicking in and the house is still chilly. Our home is pretty tight (not drafty) so for us to really feel the cool means its cold outside. And regardless of the balance, I strongly dislike cold weather. So I awoke.... and right now that's when I'm planning to meditate.... with the thoughts of summer and that made me happy. I wish to be happy. So I began my ...

Peace Y'all, Fibroids are benign tumors that grow in or on the uterus. It is something that American Black women suffer from (I'm not sure that melaninated people in other countries suffer from fibroids). Other factors include family history, never had children, and overweight. I am all of that. I got diagnosed with fibroids at age 28. The doctor found a small one during an annual visit. My mother had really bad fibroids. Doctors told her she couldn't have more children after my older brother. Clearly they were wrong because I'm here. Also in the 70's they didn't know that fibroids were benign. So when my mother birthed me, she also had a hysterectomy in the same surgery. Because I have fibroids I have PAINFUL and long cycles. I BLEED. I can fill up a super overnight pad in 2 hours on a heavy flow day. I have about 4-5 HEAVY days and then another 3 days light. I only hurt on the heavy days. I lose so much blood, that it has landed me in the hospital. When yo...

Peace, Damnit I'm done! I didn't enjoy that fast at all. First of all, it wasn't fast. It was slow as hell. And I've been hungry the entire time. I broke my fast with a salad and soup. And I got the "itis". Oh well. I'm good until next year. J/K! But you know what I mean.... I've been hitting the gym and since I was fasting the best way I know to replenish the wear and tear I sustain with the gym is protein shakes. During my fast I have allowed myself liquid in all its forms. Beverages, soups, icees or ice cream. Since I am a raging lactose intolerant, I do dairy free ice cream. I got a vitamix a few years ago and I'm love with it and all it can do. It can make soup and it can make ice cream! It actually makes them very similarly; go figure. Here is my recipe... 1 scoop vanilla protein powder 1 cup coconut milk (or almond milk) 1 cup ice 1 Tbspn vanilla extract 1/4 cup brown sugar or whatever you use as a sweetener Vitamix that bad bo...

Peace! I have made it to the tail end of this fast! Whoo hoo! I had forgotten how hard it is to fast when there are literally people sitting right next to you eating food you wish you could eat. Yesterday my coworker sat across from me eating all my favorite foods from the farmer's market. He actually thanked me for putting him on! The 7 eats in front of me all the time. I act like it doesn’t bother me. It does. As does cooking for him. But, the Earth has her duties…. This is the home stretch and I’m ready! My plan is to break my fast with a Mediterranean salad from “Fresh to order”! They have the MOST delicious salads I’ve ever tasted and yes they are a tad expensive, but oh so worth it! And as always after a fast… I plan to go raw. Right now my raw plan is for the month of April. After that, I’ll play it by ear. But for raw April, I want to perfect my raw vegan recipes. That’s my goal with the raw veganism. I’ve already said I don’t think it’s safe to eat all raw vegan all th...

Peace! I'm back... It's been a hellish couple of years. Quick update... My whole family died. I'm not being flip. It happened. I lost the job I had been working for 13 years right after I bought a house. I found out my heart beats too fast, and there is really no treatment to slow it down. And I have been slapped in the head with viscous insomnia. I'm a person that really likes to sleep. I feel strongly that this is how folks get old; by not sleeping. But as always... I'm standing squarely on my own Cipher and I'm gone be alright! But it is that time of year... fasting time. I actually haven't fasted in a few years. I was very sick in 2014. I was throwing up, dizzy, etc. and last year, stressed with the house and such. I had walking pneumonia! This year gave me excuses to not fast, but I declared I was gonna get back to me. Serenity must reappear in her own image. Not somebody's wife, or mother, or employee. Me! The me I want to be. I can honestly ...

Peace! We 5%ers have a degree which talks about going back to basics. 31:40. I'm going to take that advice. I've been either unwell or downright sick since striving to perform a parasite cleanse last summer. One of the things I stopped doing was fasting. Fasting triggered my vertigo and vertigo triggered a lot of other issues. Well..... I'm going to reclaim my sexy and start fasting again. Why fasting? Like I said, I've been unwell for almost a year! I've taken a lot of medication. I want the inside of me redeemed. I was never this sick when I fasted.  The Plan I'm not going to embark on something crazy and drastic. My plan is to master cleanse a few days, juice cleans a few more days, an finally do some raw food for a week afterward. After I'm good and internally detoxed, I will resume normal eating and weekly fasting.... Just like I used to.... Peace!

Peace Week 2 was super drama free. I ate salads most days as my big meal. I'm kinda over salads now. I' have plans to un-cook more dishes. On Friday, I did add a piece of sushi to my salad, but I paid for it later. I'm a pescatarian so I will occasionally eat fish. And I assumed if I ate sushi, than that shouldn't be against my raw diet. BUT... apparently it is. It made me sick to my stomach and constipated. Not a good combination. Other than that, I don't have much to report. My left knee has been giving me a problem. I noticed it clearly this week. I really can't say how long it's been hurting. I have a high tolerance for pain and It could have been nagging me longer than I knew. It's not really a pain, but when I extend it it pops and the popping hurts. It hurts to the touch as well. I'm not going to the doctor. (I hate that I am forced to pay for insurance that I know I won't use!!!!) All they are going to say is lose weight and that shou...

Peace! I made it through the 1st week. The Universe must be on my side because the weather has been super accommodating. I don't like fasting in winter because it lowers my body temperature making me colder than I usually am. Because my fast always leads into spring, I can't avoid fasting through the winter. This year, the weather has taken an upturn to being 10-15* warmer than usual. It's supposed to be 75* today.... Thank You Universe!!!! I haven't stressed out at all over this fast. I have really been going with the flow. If I don't feel like cooking, I eat salad or fruit. On purpose, my salads have been more veggies than fruit. A lot of complaints people have about this diet is that they don't get enough nutrition or it rots their teeth. No. Not gonna let that happen. This week has not been the expensive drama-cooking filled ordeal that I remember raw foods being in the past. I have actually been downright lazy about food prep. And I haven't been buy...

Peace. Well... I have arrived at the sacred time of the year where I fast to detox all the Ama I have acquired throughout the year. I fast 1 day a week every week. That is remove the Ama of that week. But I feel it's necessary to do a longer annual cleansing. And I always do it in the weeks leading up to the Asiatic New Year. This year it's 3/21/16. I was planning to take that day off because it is my observation of the New Year. But my job is closed on 3/17 (we are always closed Fri-Sun) so I feel some kind of way about being off on the Monday after an already long weekend. My boss knows I take off on the solstice an equinoxes. So my question is why is he giving us off on the 17th? I'll figure it out. I have more than 200 hours of personal time. I have been having all kinds of health issues since my last fast. I've found from the day fasting that liquid fasting triggers migraines. I'm not trying to be in that level of pain. Either my body is changing or ther...

Yesterday I had my minimal eating revelation. I'm grateful for that. Lately I've been prompted to make a lot of lifestyle changes that don't look like changes from the outside, but for me and my Cipher they are going to require a paradigm shift. Clearly minimal eating is one change. Another change is reducing plastic ware like tupperware. Another is acquiring more glass and wooden bowls. And getting rid of my metal cookware for glass and cast iron. I don't know what I'm going to do with my flatware. As healthy as I strive to be.... you would think my kitchen would be the primary place where those changes can be seen. It is, to some degree. I made it Kosher a decade ago. But that was a decade ago. Improvements should be an ongoing process. I'm planning to slide into my raw food feast this year rather then be cooked one day and raw the next that may be why I've never been successful at being permanently raw. The internet has raw food recipes listed but the...

Peace. I'm sick. For the last few months I have been feeling bad... really bad. I even went to a physician and submitted myself to her care. I had all manner of tests run. Still I have no definitive answer to the question of what is it. I have professional guesses... but nothing concrete. I gave her a chance. Now I'm a treat my ownself in the way that I have learned through experience works for me.... It's about to get all hotep..... The root of all dis ease is mucous. I reduce the mucous in my body, I should have some relief. How am I planning to reduce the mucous? The primary way is to fast. Fasting is detoxing and cleansing. And I don't need all these cutesy cleansing beverages that you can purchase pre-made. I'll use actual fruits and veggies from the market. (One day I'll have my garden....) My cleanse should detox me of whatever has caused my internal issues in the 1st place. Cleansing is just the 1st step of many. Well not many but 9. This na...

Peace.... I came across the artist, Astarius Miraculli by complete accident. But are there really accidents? Yeah I can be that “Peace Peace” hippie chick at times and I'm good with that. I was looking for some alternative, spiritual, world music and fell into this man. Now I'm obsessed! This artist plays the didgeridoo. I wasn't looking for that specifically but it's what I got. The didgeridoo though???? I don't think Astarius is an Australian Aborigine. He doesn't look like one and speaks American English. He's hard to google though. Couldn't find any real personal information on the man. All I could get at was his work and that's it. But I want to know what his mother and father do. Where was he born? How did he come to play the didgeridoo? No the really but his catalog shows up. Yo.... let me tell you this... I was listening to the music and also his trancey type of meditations, and I started feeling body type stuff happening. Seriously, I...

I really believe (because this is a theory) that the older one gets the less food one needs to eat. There are studies that show people who eat minimally, live longer than people who eat maximally. Ancient medical systems like Ayurveda says that fasting is important because we need to give our digestive track a break. Digestion is the system that uses the most energy. When you are young your are building a body. But all that growing stops around age 25. Childbearing women (or women who want to bare children) need to eat if they are planning to bare children. If you're not planning to procreate, minimally eat. Minimal eating will cause you to either miss your cycle or cause it to be super light and short. It can function as birth control. All the research points to eating estrogen filled foods is the reason for most of the reproductive issues ladies experience. If we minimally ate then we wouldn't have cycles and all these hormone/pesticide/antibiotic/genetically modified/et...

Peace. I haven't Built with y'all through the end of the year. I was celebrating!!! And by celebrating I was eating all the things. But I did indulge in moderation. Instead of eating the entire cake, I ate a slice and so on. I didn't make any resolutions either. Every year I have been making resolutions to make my diet and lifestyle healthier and healthier. I think I've hit the wall on the balance of healthy vs unhealthy. I know I shouldn't eat candy... I shouldn't.... But I will. I should not eat fast food, because food might not be an accurate description. But I do. When I travel, I don't travel with food. And isn't that what fast food is for? So I've gotten to the point where I don't need resolutions. I noticed some stuff.... Firstly.... I can't eat dairy. I knew I couldn't drink milk or eat ice cream. But cheese.... For some reason I thought I could do cheese and the complex dairies. Apparently I can't. I haven't been ea...

Here is the thing.... Using Korean products has a downside that I don't care for. (1) they are hard to come by. You can't walk into Macy's or the drug store and purchase them. You will have to order them online if you aren't going to Asia. I tried some Asian stores but they are mostly food. You could purchase product at salons. Most of the salons that do facials have product to purchase but they are expensive. I'm a be honest... my money has other uses. And as important as my face is to me, having a roof over my head, a car to drive and cable to watch is equally important to me. IJS.... (2) Products = chemicals. If I'm going to use these products, I have to Know that I'm introducing chemicals into my system. I strive to live holistically. So using these products long term will pull me to the darkside, and I'm not feeling that. So after I figured out my regimen... I had to adjust it to my tastes. And it still is a WIP. For the OIL, I use coconut oil or ...